Alam mo, dati rati, pinapangarap lang kita.
Walang araw na dumaan na hindi kita sinusulyapan sa pwesto mo. Napaka-pristine ng station mo, palaging maayos, at hindi nawawalan ng mga interesanteng bagay na araw-araw mo pinapalitan ng mas nakakatuwang mga detalye. Mga post-its na ginagamit mong notes sa pagtatrabaho, pero sinisingitan mo ng comedy. Katulad nung isang part na inedit mo sa gawa ko, nung nagkamali ako ng pagkaka-transcribe. Marahil sa pagmamadaling makahabol sa unrealistic nating quota, nakalimutan kong tuldukan ang isang part. Nakalagay sa post-it mo for that day, "Pag walang period, pwedeng i-kama." Salbahe ka talaga, haha. You and your silly word plays.
You made my words dance, use my own words against me. You do it so much, I'm offended, baby. Really. Hehe.
It felt good, just watching you from my spot. You and your oversized lola glasses, proof-reading transcripts at light speed and talking to everybody around you at the same time without skipping a beat. Hearing you laugh always did make me smile. Yung tawa mo pa naman, napaka-playful ng tono, almost bordering "maharot" without being too flirty.
I still hear your laughter, when my mind is quiet. I hear it when I close my eyes. When my heart beat drowns out every sound, your laugh always comes sneaking in.
I never really had the courage to talk to you much, because I've always been a bit shy around you. Buti na lang, nagkaroon ako ng pagkakataon na makausap ka minsan, nang nagkakwentuhan tayo sa pantry about movies. We started trading films, pleasantly surprising each other as fellow film buffs. Imagine my surprise when I recommended to you feel-goods, and you traded me some seriously beautiful skin flicks. Y Tu Mama Tambien? Nine Songs? Brokeback Mountain? Wahaha, omg, I couldn't help wondering why in the hell you were always so cool like that, talking about movies that are almost porn without the usual girly flinch.
I caught myself saying your name, for no reason at all than just to say it, hear it. And you know what the funny part is? It gave me butterflies.
Nagising na lang ako isang araw, may hawak na sulat, listahan ng mga points ko, the what's and why's and how's. Inlababo nako. Shet. And I really did use that word, "inlababo", LOL.
I arranged for us to meet sa food court sa Robinsons. I was quiet on the way, but you were constantly joking around. I knew the gravity of what I was about to say would tip the scales one way or the other. Either we remained as fledgling friends, or we don't. As we sat, and I "briefed" you on what it was all about, you just ogled at me. Then I took out my notes, at which point you burst out laughing. It was embarassing as hell, more so for a shy guy, so I had to kick you under the table. Kulit mo kasi eh.
I saw the signs, but I didn't stop myself. The butterflies you gave me felt too good. But it was not to be, and so I resigned myself to that.
A new guy came along. Real cool guy. We could've been friends, but he came between you and me. You started going out with him more often. Too often. Sabi mo friends lang kayo. Na may boyfriend ka na. One time, it was raining really hard, but you still went out with him. Lakad natin dapat nung araw na yun. Our lunchtime talks became your lunchtime talks. Your face lit up every time he walked in. I barely get a nod from you, much less a smile. He'd stand up, you'd stand up. You'd stand up beside him. You'd lean on him. I caught you casually hooking his pinky with yours. Too casual for everyone else to notice. But I noticed. You had your own plate and utensils sa pantry. You always kept your food separate. But you didn't mind sharing spoonfuls with him. You even finished his beer. LIARLIARCHEATERIHATEYOU
I broke my heart watching you. Wanting you. Losing you. What-if's. Regrets.
But no more. Dahil ngayon, kasama na kita. You won't have to worry about anything else.
EH ANO Ngaun kng. ... wala Ka Na>>? wala ka na sa kanILA?
eh no -aman kun ම—ȧ��??qpewoirjqpowiejfakdsjfkasjefkasdjfaskdfasdkfj;aksd jf;akjsdfsadkjfaskdjf;aksjdflkasdjfaksd;fjkasd;fka js;dlfk-09-09-09=-==1=231231!)@(#_!@HINDISIYABAGAYSAYO!!!WALASIYANGK WENTA!@!@1121212OI1
bahala silang lahat sa buhay nila. basta ako, kasama kita. akin ka lang, abby. may dala akong mga rosas. sana magustuhan mo. ipapalinis ko kay manong bukas yung gate nang himlayan mo, medyo luma na rin ang pintura.
malapit na ang pasko, abby.
Walang araw na dumaan na hindi kita sinusulyapan sa pwesto mo. Napaka-pristine ng station mo, palaging maayos, at hindi nawawalan ng mga interesanteng bagay na araw-araw mo pinapalitan ng mas nakakatuwang mga detalye. Mga post-its na ginagamit mong notes sa pagtatrabaho, pero sinisingitan mo ng comedy. Katulad nung isang part na inedit mo sa gawa ko, nung nagkamali ako ng pagkaka-transcribe. Marahil sa pagmamadaling makahabol sa unrealistic nating quota, nakalimutan kong tuldukan ang isang part. Nakalagay sa post-it mo for that day, "Pag walang period, pwedeng i-kama." Salbahe ka talaga, haha. You and your silly word plays.
You made my words dance, use my own words against me. You do it so much, I'm offended, baby. Really. Hehe.
It felt good, just watching you from my spot. You and your oversized lola glasses, proof-reading transcripts at light speed and talking to everybody around you at the same time without skipping a beat. Hearing you laugh always did make me smile. Yung tawa mo pa naman, napaka-playful ng tono, almost bordering "maharot" without being too flirty.
I still hear your laughter, when my mind is quiet. I hear it when I close my eyes. When my heart beat drowns out every sound, your laugh always comes sneaking in.
I never really had the courage to talk to you much, because I've always been a bit shy around you. Buti na lang, nagkaroon ako ng pagkakataon na makausap ka minsan, nang nagkakwentuhan tayo sa pantry about movies. We started trading films, pleasantly surprising each other as fellow film buffs. Imagine my surprise when I recommended to you feel-goods, and you traded me some seriously beautiful skin flicks. Y Tu Mama Tambien? Nine Songs? Brokeback Mountain? Wahaha, omg, I couldn't help wondering why in the hell you were always so cool like that, talking about movies that are almost porn without the usual girly flinch.
I caught myself saying your name, for no reason at all than just to say it, hear it. And you know what the funny part is? It gave me butterflies.
Nagising na lang ako isang araw, may hawak na sulat, listahan ng mga points ko, the what's and why's and how's. Inlababo nako. Shet. And I really did use that word, "inlababo", LOL.
I arranged for us to meet sa food court sa Robinsons. I was quiet on the way, but you were constantly joking around. I knew the gravity of what I was about to say would tip the scales one way or the other. Either we remained as fledgling friends, or we don't. As we sat, and I "briefed" you on what it was all about, you just ogled at me. Then I took out my notes, at which point you burst out laughing. It was embarassing as hell, more so for a shy guy, so I had to kick you under the table. Kulit mo kasi eh.
I saw the signs, but I didn't stop myself. The butterflies you gave me felt too good. But it was not to be, and so I resigned myself to that.
A new guy came along. Real cool guy. We could've been friends, but he came between you and me. You started going out with him more often. Too often. Sabi mo friends lang kayo. Na may boyfriend ka na. One time, it was raining really hard, but you still went out with him. Lakad natin dapat nung araw na yun. Our lunchtime talks became your lunchtime talks. Your face lit up every time he walked in. I barely get a nod from you, much less a smile. He'd stand up, you'd stand up. You'd stand up beside him. You'd lean on him. I caught you casually hooking his pinky with yours. Too casual for everyone else to notice. But I noticed. You had your own plate and utensils sa pantry. You always kept your food separate. But you didn't mind sharing spoonfuls with him. You even finished his beer. LIARLIARCHEATERIHATEYOU
I broke my heart watching you. Wanting you. Losing you. What-if's. Regrets.
But no more. Dahil ngayon, kasama na kita. You won't have to worry about anything else.
EH ANO Ngaun kng. ... wala Ka Na>>? wala ka na sa kanILA?
eh no -aman kun ම—ȧ��??qpewoirjqpowiejfakdsjfkasjefkasdjfaskdfasdkfj;aksd jf;akjsdfsadkjfaskdjf;aksjdflkasdjfaksd;fjkasd;fka js;dlfk-09-09-09=-==1=231231!)@(#_!@HINDISIYABAGAYSAYO!!!WALASIYANGK WENTA!@!@1121212OI1
bahala silang lahat sa buhay nila. basta ako, kasama kita. akin ka lang, abby. may dala akong mga rosas. sana magustuhan mo. ipapalinis ko kay manong bukas yung gate nang himlayan mo, medyo luma na rin ang pintura.
malapit na ang pasko, abby.
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